Day 184

Walking the Path

On Saturday, I watched “Tony Robbins: I’m Not Your Guru”  on Netflix. From the beginning, I was in tears. I think I cried more watching what was actually an uplifting documentary about the work Tony Robbins does than I have at any sad movie I’ve ever seen, although the Japanese animation “Grave of the Fireflies” is still the biggest tear jerker I’ve seen, but the moving and motivating “Tony Robbins: I’m Not Your Guru” had me in tears on multiple occasions.

The documentary follows Robbins and a select few of the participants in an annual six-day self-help retreat that takes place in California and costs more than most people’s monthly salary to attend–well, at least it’s more than my monthly salary! Anyway, it’s a spectacular event, with music, tears, shouts of joy and elation, and shocked expressions when Robbins uses strong and taboo language to “wake people up.”

Watching what looked like hundreds (maybe about a thousand) of people discovering their personal power and their purpose in life, made me think about my own path, and I realized, I haven’t been walking it. I’ve been meditating on it, blogging about it, talking about it, and planning around it, but I have not been walking it. What’s stopping me?

I think it’s my fear of abandonment. I don’t want people to look at me sideways when I follow my heart and do and say things that are seen as new agey psychobabble that is a little too Kumbaya for most people. I’m all about being compassionate and loving, expressing our feelings, being authentic, and connecting to others on a deeper level than shared opinions about sports, movies, or politics. However, I’m afraid if I start advocating that and start walking the path and behaving the way my heart tells me too, I will be seen as flaky and out of touch with reality. So I keep my head down and I quietly secretly go about my life without sharing my ideas with the people in my life.

Well, starting now, I’m not going to hide the fact that I care about people, and when I see people suffering, I am going to do something or say something. I won’t be good at this right off the bat, but at least I am going to swing. Even if I strike out, I’m going to get right back out at bat and adjust my stance, and form and keep swinging until I hit a home run. This is the beginning of me walking my path. I’m a little afraid, but I am more interested in seeing how this is all going to play out.

If you are walking your path, I commend you. If you are thinking about walking your path, or haven’t found your path yet, I support you. Let’s take this journey together. I imagine it will be brilliant, and even if it isn’t what we expected, it will be better than what we are doing now.

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